Taking a break from studying. I am near the end of my first semester of the nursing program. There have been moments where I felt that I was Done With This Bullshit, mostly related to instructors who are probably better nurses than teachers.
Anyway…I am a 35 yr old man (still blows my mind). I have spent the last 15 years either in a band or as a bike messenger, both of which I am good at… but messengering only goes so far, and music has a fragile chemistry. At some point it became apparent to me that I wanted/needed to do Something Else- but it had to be something that I could respect myself for, which meant not going to school to learn how to tuck in my shirt and be a desk jockey- I saw enough of what that did to people younger than myself in my days as a messenger. I wanted something useful, and something empowering so that if the shit hit the fan I would keep cool and be a part of making it better. I went back to school and enrolled in the courses for people who haven’t been to school for a while. While shaking off the dust I met a number of people (mostly women) going for nursing. After some talking I thought ‘this fits’. –So, I am Going For It, and have been for 2 yrs. Only 1 1/2 to go.
My point in writing… it is discouraging to come across so much dissatisfaction! I am thankful for those of you who try to turn it around and remind a sinking person that their race isn’t run yet. Those of you who have been around and have the MO of ‘grimace and bear it’ scare me as much as those who are bailing out.
I don’t blame anyone for their feelings… I haven’t even got a clue what it is really like. But seriously, folks… am I just going to be miserable because of administrative issues and attitudes of the staff I work with?
Yes, Of course I must decide for myself how well I perform in this environment. Nevertheless, I keep feeling like I am trying to overcome thoughts about the next 5 years of my life being all rain and uphill pedaling